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Monday, February 19, 2007
7:18PM
So, I am really not liking my Latin class. I mean, I am fine just skirting by and maybe reading the Latin aloud sometimes, but I cannot partake in any of the discussion. Every time I try to say something, it is seen as stupid. I mean it may be the case that I'm not looking as deeply in the poem or misinterpreting something, but I mean, when other people make a comment and people disagree with it, it is argued or somehow acknowledged as an intelligent comment, but that there are problems with it. With me, I make a comment and its like "ok, moving on" and don't give it another thought. I don't know what it is. For example, we were reading Catullus 76 where he likens his feelings to a paralysis and disease. Everyone was saying it was a sign of his guilt for sleeping with a married woman. I said that i read it as he had conflicting emotions between love and hate which are leaving him paralyzed and like a disease it is unwanted and he wants it to go away. The professor said "interesting" and then continued talking about guilt. Likewise today, we were reading Tibullus 1.1 where he is giving an idealized version of rustic life. Everyone was saying that it was because Tibullus just didn't know what life on a farm was like. I said that I thought that he may have known, for he mentions using a hoe, planting, avoiding the heat of the sun, and carrying sheep. However, he is trying to convince himself that a farmer's life is better than a military one, for he says "may I not be ashamed to take up the hoe" meaning that currently he does not currently like the lifestyle but wants to, so he's idealizing it and making the other life look worse, with long journeys and constant sounds of war trumpets. My professor said "ok" and changed the subject. It's like what I think is not even considered. So, since I do not like talking in class anyway, I will stop trying to talk in class. I mean, I guess it may hurt my participation grade, but it's not worth me mustering up the courage to say something just to have it dismissed.
On another note, David's thinking of moving again. He wants to see if he can make 30, 000 on the current one. If he can, then we'll move to a place i don't like as much, but looks like a good real estate investment. I keep indicating that I don't want to move, but he says we probably won't get offered 30,000 more than for what we bought it, so I shouldn't worry. I dunno what to think.
I do want people over soon. I just don't know how to go about chosing a date to invite people. I would hate it if I chose a date where most people could not make it...particularly drivers.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
10:12PM
So, she gave birth to two more, but they were dead when they came out, which is probably why she went into labor early. We took all of them to the vet. The two healthy ones looked healthy. The one that was dead when we first came home looks like it just got suffocated trying to come out. The one that was having a hard time breathing was still alive, but wasn't able to eat. It had a cleft palate and would not be able to survive, so the vet put her to sleep. The two that came out dead, one had missing internal organs and the other had a more severe cleft palate. So, only 2 out of the 6 survived. It made me sad, but there's nothing that we could have done about it; it was just bad breeding.
4:27AM
So, Dreamer gave birth today while I was at school. there was one dead and two alive. Since we've been back, one more has been born, but looks like it has resperatory problems and probably won't make it. She may have another one in her.
David's taking care of the one while i do homework.
Monday, February 12, 2007
7:32PM
I haven't been on here in a while. So, to update.
The house is ready. It is painted. We are having a dispute with the builders saying they should have put light boxes or whatever those are called where every light is, for they have these god awful flourescent lights and they are connected using wiring coming through the cieling uncontained. So, there's nothing we can put up there other than another flourescent. oh well. We invited some people over for superbowl and were going to invite more people if there were drivers, but alas, nobody wanted to go. I wouldn't have either.
Classes have been ok. Latin is difficult since I have not taken Latin since freshman year. It's 8:30 monday and wednesday. ick. most of it is reading, translation, and discussion which is not that bad. I took a translation quiz today and it kicked my ass...not too badly tho...but i was one of the last to turn it in and i did not know quite a bit of the vocabulary. In my variety in language class, i had a presentation today...which wasn't that good, but acceptable. I hate speaking unless i have something scripted out. Anyway, Languages of the World is interesting. Philosophy of Law is boring, but not that much work. Opera workshop sucks. well it's just too much to work on and memorize. I'm probably not going to do it again.
I was sick this weekend, so I had to skip out of the chamber choir concert. I called Rodney before hand and he told me "don't come, you're no use to the choir and you'd merely be a distraction."
Dreamer is expecting next weekend. I WANT HER BABIES!!!
I haven't been able to socialize as much this semester. Since I have no Friday classes, I'm stuck at home or at David's office until he has time to take me...which is usually after SQ. After promising me every week that he'd take me, he has finally agreed to let me go in early in the morning, which kinda sucks so i can't sleep in, but I want to see my friends goddammit. He's worried about getting me to duke with too much free time cuz he's afraid of me being a "bad boy." Oh well.
So, I need to invite people over some time soon. I'm thinking a chorale party and a friends party. the only problem is transportation.
Hmm what else?
I hate that I haven't been keeping up with this, but whatever. I also wish i were online more, but my damn computer is broken again, so I don't have AIM and occasionally have Yahoo.
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
11:20PM
so, I'm going to be in Sacramento the whole time I was supposed to.
David sent this:
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My dad was supposed to read it, but my mom checked his email and responded with this:
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Now, I never told her that she could hope. I think she asked if she could pray and I said something like you can do whatever you want. Anyway, I would have left it at that, but David was upset and replied with this:
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Nothing happened after that. My mom was depressed for about a day, but after that she's been normal to her standards, primarily because my grandpa and cousin came over. My cousin is rather cute I have found.
Anyway, I guess I won't have to worry about whose house I will attend for holidays. I talked to my sister about not coming back andshe was fine with it. I'll probably end up visiting her occasionally.
I did find out that Sejin's fiance is only 20-30 minutes away from my house.
Anyway, both my parents are on jury duty, so I am at home with my baby sister. I haven't done anything this break, but I blame that on myself not taking any initiative.
sounds like a parent is home.
laters
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
So, I'm back in Sacramento. I don't enjoy being here. My mom's home all the time, but so far that hasn't been a problem...there was one close thing, but i believe I defused the situation pretty well. I'm really bored here and don't know what to do. I don't have internet, so I have to use either my sister's or my dad's computer. But when I come home, it is all lying and hiding and not being able to be myself. Thus, I am pretty confident that I wil not be coming back next Christmas. However, there lies the issue of guilt. I am going to feel so guilty not being there. My mom hanging up only 3 stockings. I can't imagine. Plus I feel guilty for making my dad and sister have to deal with her. I don't know what to do. Especially since I would most likely be visiting my inlaws for Christmas. (Those who are coupled, how do you handle that whole deal about whom to visit for Christmas etc) Anyway, this break will be cut short. David is planning on contacting my parents announcing a "suprise trip" for me to New York about which I am not supposed to know. That will cause a huge fight tho. :-(
Last...Saturday, I went to a Jesuit drama reunion. Not much fun at all. I did not know enough people. and the people i did know, I didn't have much to say to. I blame this primarily on myself, not keeping up with my friends from high school. The best conversations were with the faculty and some of the students I barely knew. I found it kind of odd. Anyway, if I go to a reunion again, I need to have someone along who will follow me around like a puppy dog, so that I don't feel awkward not talking to anybody.
on a good note, I did suprisingly well this semester, despite it being one of the toughest I remember
Language Development A
Music Theory A
Logic B+
Voice Lessons A+
Computer Science B
I am pleased.
Anyway, I gots to go.
Monday, November 27, 2006
7:49PM
I havent been on here much at all anymore. I haven't been chatting much either. moreso than i have been this semester. David hates chat. I wish he didn't. I feel like i've lost touch with many many people. I hate when that happens. I feel bad.
Anyway,
We were still in a hotel on thanksgiving. His family did not come up. I really wanted to cook a thanksgiving meal, but we couldnt use our kitchen, so we went to Cracker Barrel. At 9, we went to Best Buy to wait until it opened at 5am. we were next to this gay group. I should have gotten thier names. They seemed really cool and it would have been nice to hang out with them. only one of them was hot...tho david didn't think any of them were. It was kinda fun, but i was upset since i really didn't have to be there.
So, there are still things wrong with the house, but we are living there again. It should be done by wednesday.
dunno what else. I'm not looking forward to the rest of the semester. I can't wait for it to be over.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
8:44PM
So, things aren't going well. First, David's mother might have a breast cancer again. His dad is out in california and cant come back, so David's going to have to go down there. A few minutes later, we found out that while trying to replace a floorboard, the workers cut a water line so our ceiling was flooded. So, we're back to living in a hotel, although they are paying for it. So yeah, things havent been going so well. Things are calmer today now that it's been digested.
We saw Casino Royale to take our minds off stuff. It was decent. I kept hearing people making comments not realizing that this was supposed to be a prequel to all the James Bonds. However, I don't know if I agree with how they did it. They used very modern technology as if it were happening nowadays and I think there even was a comment about M missing the Cold War. I understand that not using it would be boring, but it also just doesn't work as a prequel. Secondly, the love stuff was just too long. At the beginning it was rather exciting, but later it dragged and the action scenes weren't that exciting. Thirdly, I found it very choppy. One moment he's at the game, next moment, he's in the shower. One moment he's in a wheelchair, next moment he's walking around and jumping in bed with a girl. But it was decent.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
4:39PM
I hate my classes. i can't wait for them to be over. for this project, i got stuck with the group of people no other group wanted. lucky me. Anyway, a couple day's ago someone mistook david for being my dad. i have been making fun of him ever since. the house is slowly being unpacked. And yeah...
i may be getting sick, which is sad.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
7:39AM
So, I'm drunk. David's in Charleston. I hate this semester. We're moved into our new Cary house after living in a Hotel for a couple weeks. I should go to bed.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
7:31PM
Here is ( my proposed spring schedule. ) It will be my first class before 10 :-(. I will also have 9 hours of work study (most likely T Th) and voice lessons...I'm hoping thursday or right after class on M or W.
Tuesday, October 3, 2006
12:44PM
God I haven't been on here in like forever. So much to say. Well, lets see. After I came back I stayed with David. We went to Myrtle. I rode/drove a jetski for the first time. I like it. We decided not to do American Idol because if I made it far at all, which I still doubt I would, I would have to go back to Birmingham multiple times during this semester and I believe "Hollywood week" was during my final exams and we just figured it wasn't worth it.
Anyway, we moved me into my dorm before school started. I stayed there for a little bit, but then they were having mold problems and they had no AC, so since then, I've been staying with David.
My computer had major problems. I finally got it back yesterday, but I haven't had a chance to test it out. I kept having HD problems and then it wouldn't accept power.
Classes. Not what I expected. Music 114. (Music Theory 2) I thought I was going to love this class, since i loved 65. However, we have a new professor. He's from England. He's very stiff. His grading is terrible. If you do everything correctly, you get an 8/10. It has to be musically good to get anything higher. He also makes the students play in class, which isn't bad for me, but for some of these people who play other instruments, it's kinda hard to sightread some of these things. Also, he complains about our handwriting, but I can usually barely read his. But it's not that bad I guess.
Philosophy 103. (First order logic) I love it. I mean, there was one problem set that I had a hard time on, but otherwise I think it's great. Everyone else in the class HATES it. I agree it can be time consuming, but the material is not that hard.
Psychology...I forgot the number. (Language Development) It's an ok class. We read some articles and write on them. Then we discuss them in class. I mean, she complains about me not talking that much, the professor does, but it looks like I'm doing well in the class...compared to the rest. She doesn't grade high, but I'm pretty sure she's going to curve it a little, for I'm getting a B average on the writing and the class average is a C. I dunno. She's a funny little Japanese lady and I love her.
CompSci 108. WORST CLASS EVER!!!! It is entirely group projects, which is hard for me because I live in Raleigh. And then I tend to be left out of the loop when I do miss a meeting, so I come back and I have no idea what is going on. Then the teacher is an asshole. First assignment was to meet with our group and write it up. He gave us 32 hours to do this. How the fuck are we supposed to find a time for 5 people to meet within 32 hours...well less because we have to write it up. Then last night our project was due. He told the class 5 days before it was due that every group was doing it wrong and had to change it. When we complained, he said, "Well, at least I'm not telling you on Monday." Then someone said that he thought it was due Sunday, for that was when it was originally due. He pointed on the website "See it's Monday. You guys complain about me not updating it, but here it is." Later that day I click on a part of the assignment due in a couple of days. nope not there. I mean, you don't point out ONE minor thing you did right when there are large things that you are still missing. Then he updates everything a few minutes before class starts. I mean...it would have been helpful if you had put it up the night before so we're not trying to work on it last minute. I don't get it.
Voice lessons - I am now taking voice lessons because they are free because i am a music minor. I got Wayne. ^_^ We havent met much because his mom broke something so he's had to take care of her...and then he got sick...but he's better now and we've been trying to make up time.
Chorale - Good group of people. I have two partners. One has had mono, but is sounding good now. My other one...isn't the best singer. I mean he has pretty good tone, and can tell when he's wrong, but it's like he's not a good sightreader, and he's sightreading all the time. And this is problematic for me because I can sightread pretty well, but I gravitate towards what I hear...unless I know it's supposed to not be the same. Now, I could just try to ignore him...but he's really the only thing I hear. I kinda talked to him about it, and he said he can't read music...He just knows to go up or down. I kinda wanna talk to Rodney about it.
What else to say.
David's trying to figure out what to do for fall break. Everything is SO expensive because it's Columbus Day? We are going to DC for Thanksgiving to meet his dad's side of the family.
We should be moving soon. Our place should be bought...the paperwork was taking forever...but it's supposed to come in today. So we can move to the new place and get new furniture etc.
I'm kinda sick. just nose stuff. no sore throat yet.
OH i had a good birthday. David brought a cake to Chorale on the thursday and then had a "suprise" party at the condo on friday night. One bad thing about living in Raleigh is getting together with friends.
Right now I'm at work, but Rodney is on vacation.
Current mood:  content
Thursday, August 3, 2006
11:46PM
I shall be in an airplane headed to phoenix in about 6 hours. Then, headed to DC. Then headed to RDU.
Monday, July 31, 2006
1:49AM
oh and at TGIFriday's, I saw this cute guy, one of the busboys. He started staring at me. He came up to the table and asked if I went to Merryhill Prep. I said yes. He said he was in 6th grade when I was in 8th. He asked where I was going to school and I said Duke and I asked him and he said Sac City, but he was planning on transferring to UCSB.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
11:09PM
I HATE it here. Luckily I'm leaving on Friday. I'm having a hard time keeping up my lies as they keep probing and probing deeper. Like my phone. They bought me a tracfone, which i hated, so david put me on his phone. I had to hide my phone and now they're asking if i have enough minutes on my phone and stuff. And they're asking more and more questions about the "beach trip" I said I was taking so i could go back early.
Anyway a couple of days ago I had a fun time with my family and we played UNO except everybody was able to see each other's cards and the next ones in the deck...it went on forever...we finally just called it quit. So, here's the question...if everybody is a good stragagist...will the game ever end?
Friday, July 21, 2006
11:00PM
I got in a fight with my mom last night:
well...i was watching a commercial about a car...and mentioned to my mom that she wouldnt like it since it had too many buttons...she said yeah and she wished that people still used typewriters and then i said well, computers produce better presentation...then she started crying and said that I just come home from school just to drill into her that she was a bad mother...and then I said I'd never come back then...then i asked my dad if i could take a walk...and when my mom realized i was going outside alone, she started screaming saying that it was dangerous...i even heard her almost a block away...she came running after me and finally found me...and said that she would stay in a hotel next time i come and i said i wouldn't come back at all and then my dad drove and came to pick us up...because he didnt want my mom wandering the street
In other news, last Sunday i had fun at my first real sleepover with Carmen. It was fun and I stayed up rather late. we watched movies and tv and talked and it was a great time.
I'm getting distracted so i shall end now
Sunday, July 16, 2006
2:09AM
I have found that I have become bored with the internet...and thus bored in general. The only things I do on the net are check my mail, check out livejournal, check out facebook, if friends are online chat, and looking at porn. email, livejournal, and facebook only take a few minutes and if there are no friends online and you're not in the mood for porn, i can't think of anything else to do online...well there are games...but ive gotten tired of those...and yeah...:-(
my teeth seem to be almost completely normal...tender gums in the back...and some discoloration in my face. So that's good.
I'm so glad I'm gonna be out of the house and in the company of friends tomorrow. My dad refuses to tell me when he's gonna pick me up monday morning.
I sang at church today. I feel so bad when I do it. But the pianist had nobody else willing to sing. I'm probably going to have to do the same thing the next two Sundays.
I guess I should go to bed.
Thursday, July 13, 2006
5:33PM
I wrote up my dream, but I decided to make it private. Anyway, my mom is taking a shower and going to head to bed...its only 5:30.
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